Songs on Repeat

Sometimes a song will grab me and won’t release me for a while. My mind dwells within the world the words create and my heart is strung with the chords and bruised by its rhythms.

Sometimes for hours, other times for days, I walk with the ghosts that wisp silently through my actual surroundings like animated painters, augmenting my life with their philosophies and poetries.

It’s a wonder I’ve not fallen into their trance entirely and forgotten to keep stepping, watching for cars while listening for truth, seeing grief, smelling trust, fidelity, or hope. It never lets up slowly. The song wrestles my mind until it releases it, suddenly.

I’m no Jacob, no wrestler with the divine, but I know a kind of limp that slows my pace and marks my cadence. Each poet leaving a sore reminder in the hip of my soul.

On Repeat: The Last Song on Earth by Adam Melchor

I’ve been listening to this song on repeat for two or three days. I’m moved by it.

https://open.spotify.com/embed/track/2kuC5OFUyXdVdL56QcDojM

Lyrics by Adam Melchor. Performed with Emily Warren. On the “album” Two Songs For Now

There was a time
When all the doors closed
Boarded up the storefronts
Sent everyone home

No one was driving
The air was all clean
Just one of the reasons
I was grateful to breathe

What were we doing
What did we know
Before we all noticed
A hole in the boat

Sinking and swimming
Thinking were living
Ran out of lipstick to put on the pig

So don’t rock me back to sleep
Cuz i’m wide awake
And i’m done with counting sheep
I’ve had it that way
It’s not my job but it might be my turn
To get up and put in the work
This won’t have to be
The last song on earth

When there’s nothing to do
All day to do it
If you don’t use your kindness
You’re likely to lose it

It’s only human
To step outside the door
With phone keys and wallet
And a little unsure

What were we doing
What did we know
Before we all noticed
A hole in the boat

Sinking and swimming
Thinking were living
Ran out of lipstick to put on the pig

So don’t rock me back to sleep
Cuz i’m wide awake
And i’m done with counting sheep
I’ve had it that way
It’s not my job but it might be my turn
To get up and put in the work
This won’t have to be
The last song on earth

What were we doing
What’s the excuse
Can’t turn off the world
Like we turn off the news

Took off the blinders
Learned how to listen listen
Remember this feeling and hope for forgiveness

So don’t rock me back to sleep
Cuz i’m wide awake
And i’m done with counting sheep
I’ve had it that way
It’s not my job but it might be my turn
To get up and put in the work
This won’t have to be the
Last song on earth

Finishing 2020 in 2nd Peter (and Advent)

For our planning purposes, here is a bit of a plan:

Summary: We will be approaching the Advent season by entering into a Sermon series on 2nd Peter. This series will take us all the way to Christmas. 2nd Peter looks forward to Jesus’ second coming, which makes it a good fit for the waiting season (Advent). In addition, we will be using serveral parables related to Jesus’ return as our call to worship. We will just read them and perhaps have a congregational response of: “Let those who have ears, hear the words of the Lord.” The benedictions selected should work decently with the sermons (I hope) and I’m thinking the Advent readings could be taken from the Prophets and their prophecies about Jesus. We have a few weeks to work those out and how we will execute them, but I’m thinking about how to be strategic with these and use video for them. Here is the weekly break down so far:

46 – November 15, 2020 – 2 Peter 1:1 – 11
Scripture Reading: 2 Peter 1:1 – 11
Benediction: Romans 11:33-36
Call To Worship: Forgiven Debts Matthew 18:21-35
BI: Adding Christian Character to Christ’s Calling is Participating in God’s Redemptive Work
Worship Team: Joe C

47 – November 22, 2020 – 2 Peter 1:12 – 21
Scripture Reading: 2 Peter 1:12 – 21
Benediction: Ezekiel 17:22-24
Call To Worship: A Good Father Luke 11:5-13
BI: God Gave Scripture as a consistent voice of truth to his church Worship Team: Jackie & Maricris

48 – November 29, 2020 – 2 Peter 2:1 – 12
Scripture Reading: 2 Peter 2:1 – 12
Benediction: Titus 3:3-7
Call To Worship: Full Barns Luke 12:13 – 21
BI: False teachers / prophets are detected by character, message, and fruit. Worship Team: Joe C
Advent 1 Reading: 

49 – December 6, 2020 – 2 Peter 2:13 – 22 (COMMUNION SUNDAY)    
Scripture Reading: 2 Peter 2:13 – 22
Benediction: Isa 49:5-7
Call To Worship: Prepared Servants Luke 12:35-48
BI: The cost false teachers pay is their own separation from God’s good message and path.
Worship Team: Jackie & Maricris
Advent 2 Reading:

50 – December 13, 2020 – 2 Peter 3:1 – 9
Scripture Reading: 2 Peter 3:1 – 9
Benediction: Daniel‬ ‭7:13-18‬ ‭
Call To Worship: Prepared Revelers Matthew 25:1-13
BI: In apocalyptic times, wholesome thinking on scriptural truth and hope in Jesus return is being prepared.
Worship Team: Joe C
Advent 3 Reading:

51 – December 20, 2020 – 2 Peter 3:10 – 18
Scripture Reading:  2 Peter 3:10 – 18
Benediction: Hebrews 13:20,21
Call To Worship: Found Treasure Matthew 13:44-46
BI: Our anticipation of Jesus’ coming drives us to follow his path of sacrifice and love.
Worship Team: Jackie & Maricris
Advent 4 Reading:

52 – December 27, 2020 – Christmas Hymn Celebration???
Worship Team: ???
Advent 5 Reading:

Unity in Christ is Coming – Galatians 3:15 – 4:7

Unity in Christ is worth fighting for (Unity in Christ is coming) – Galatians 3:15-4:7 (3:24-29 quoted, NIV)

So the law was our guardian until Christ came that we might be justified by faith. Now that this faith has come, we are no longer under a guardian. So in Christ Jesus you are all children of God through faith, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus. If you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise.

To the churches in Galatia, a region of churches rather than a single church, Paul makes a detailed argument about the what unites Christian believers together as co-heirs. This is a terrific passage to study as a whole, but for brevity, let me focus on what value the actual, realized unity has in today’s spiritual currency.  If some of us do actually “belong to Christ” then according to Paul, there is a unity that we find in Jesus that transcends our social status, religious heritage, and gender. I think it might be fair to add age, culture, ethnicity, first language, physical ability, mental health, etc. The unity, Paul says, has made us “Abraham’s seed” which is singular.  When we are “in Christ”, we are carrying the blessing of God for the nations, which of course is the good news about Jesus.  Maybe we can earn that title of “Christian” or “little Christ” after all. 

That seems like something to work hard for; to see the nations blessed.  Jesus, speaking to his Father, indicated likewise, that the veracity of his claim to be able to save people’s souls and forgive their sins would be magnified as the world saw unity among those who followed him. “I [Jesus] in them and you [Father] in me—so that they may be brought to complete unity. Then the world will know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.” (John 17:23). This complete unity again is not a surface level unity were we try to dress the same way, or speak the same language. Jesus didn’t want to imply uniformity among those who followed him, but a unity created by a mutual love and preference for the other. If we have indeed been baptized into Christ, then we belong to him and his body. We are not our own. We are only effective in displaying this unity if we engage in the difficult work of loving other Christians in meaningful and tangible ways.  We need not worry about a PR team or news articles to publish our great and wonderful unity.  Remember Philippians 2.  No vain conceit. As my wife would lovingly remind me, “Give the Holy Spirit some breathing room turbo.”  They will know we are his disciples by our love (again, Jesus’s words). 

Now, if I’ve convinced you that a form of Christian unity, centered around humility, respect, preference for the other and self sacrifice is worth pursuing, then give me a moment to warn you about the cost and the pace of progress. 

First, our formulas for being nice enough for polite company are going to break down.  Don’t think that the Old Testament Law was trivial.  No less trivial than the cultural institutions of your family of origin.  But “in Christ”, the Law that formed the people of God toward receiving the expected Messiah was “fulfilled” (REF). From that point forward, faith in that Messiah (Jesus) is the way we enter into the family of God (John 1:9). In the image Paul uses with the Galatian believers, the Law was watching over the people of God until Jesus came.  Paul’s long discussion about the value of the Law during those years between Moses and Jesus (60 or 70 generations) found in his letter to the Romans.  Here Paul keeps to his point that by their faith in Jesus, these believers, both Jewish and non-Jewish, were ALL children of God. This “baptism into Christ” frees the people of God from the legislation that formed the people of God before Jesus.  Jesus said, “you heard it said….but I say to you…” in his famous Sermon on the Mount. In these six teachings he brings the legislation from the Old Testament into a Christocentric ethic of love. He moves from the outside boundaries of minimum social acceptance toward the heart behind these laws.  Paul seems to think that being clothed with Christ will not only fulfill the Law of the Old Testament, but allow believers to stand before God as his children, well within the behavioral and relational expectations of God’s children.

Second, our formulas for elevating ourselves above others are going to be broken down. The infamous prayer of the Pharisee, Jesus shared as an illustration in Luke 11, this religious God-follower said, “God, I thank you that I am not like other people…”. His list separating others as evil doers before his recounts why he stands boldly before a holy God. An Ancient Jewish blessing daily praised God “…who has created me a human and not beast, a man and not a woman, an Israelite and not a gentile, circumcised and not uncircumcised, free and not slave.” An Ancient Greek saying thanks the gods “that I was born a human and not a beast; a man and not a woman; a Greek and not a Barbarian.” (Thales of Miletus***). I’m sure the Roman citizens had similar prayers of thankfulness being Roman and free. You have this prayer in your heart too.  At least, I know I do.  It’s the reason we read further into tragic news stories until we find the “why not me” factor in the story.  Why were they killed, arrested, injured, etc? Was it their social status, their addiction, their skin color, or their choice of friends?  Thank God I am not, _________.  I wonder what multitude of my sins can be traced back to that root sentiment. Paul’s statement to the Galatians rather puts our thankfulness directly on that which equalizes our value in the communities we live in!  Thank God that we are in Christ and we ALL are Abraham’s promised seed! We are the blessings to the nations declared in Genesis 12 and indeed we still proclaim that blessing (the gospel of Jesus) to the nations.  Thank God we have TOGETHER become heirs according to the promise. Thank God that she is God’s child even I’m upset by her. Thank God that he is God’s child even if worships differently than I do.  Thank God for them even though they value different traditions, sing different songs, and have different ways of understanding “the good life”.  

Let me just say, it’s ok to feel like this might be too much to ask. It may seem impossible to rid our church of feelings of superiority and from structures that reenforce our human social comfort foods: thankful-self-piety potato salad, power-islands veggie dip, and social-strata layer cake. (Too Baptist perhaps?). Paul didn’t spill 4 chapters worth of ink to the Galatians because an easy fix or simple teaching was going to solve their human condition. The Apostle Paul strenuously battled with the Apostle Peter over this.  What makes me think I’m going to have an easier time than Peter with getting rid of my “Thank God I am not you” silent-prayers, hidden-thoughts, and micro-reactions?

[Need to continue and make this more practical here. How do I confront my ego with the Gospel?  How do I embrace unity that defies uniformity, indeed that glories in the beauty of the other instead of feeling threatened?]
[Maybe sum up with “the kingdom is going to be alright” ideas from Good and Beautiful, finishing with the Dallas Willard quote…]

*** Source: http://www.perseus.tufts.edu/hopper/text?doc=D.+L.+1+1 Diogenes Laertius (3rd Cent AD), Lives of Eminent Philosophers, translated by R.D. Hicks “Hermippus in his “Lives” refers to Thales the story which is told by some of Socrates, namely, that he used to say there were three blessings for which he was grateful to Fortune: “first, that I was born a human being and not one of the brutes; next, that I was born a man and not a woman; thirdly, a Greek and not a barbarian.””

Embrace – Written Summer 2017

Tonight I received an embrace
A large and lavish embrace
A grand man large by many measure
One might say a fallen man
A reduced and sinful man 
Looking for forgiveness and acceptance 
It was a strong and uncomfortable embrace 
I was not ready to forgive

Tonight I received an embrace 
A quick and passive embrace
From a man grand in my esteem
You may call a mentor or father
A friend, now hurt, by my sin
I was looking for forgiveness and acceptance 
But it was an uncomfortable confirmation 
He was not ready to forgive. 

Unity in Christ is Here! – Philippians 2:1-7

Unity in Christ is theologically demanded.

In fact, it could be argued that working to the point of pain and discomfort for the sake of unity in Christ may be theologically demanded by the gospel. Let’s look at a famous passage in Paul’s letter to the Philippians.

Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage; rather, he made himself nothing by taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. – Philippians 2:1-7 (NIV)

In Philippi, things were not all polite potlucks and coffee-fueled hymn-sings. Just ask Euodia and Syntyche, the two female leaders who had worked alongside Paul and Clement but now were not getting along (Phil 4:1-3). Ask those worried sick about Epaphroditus (Phil 2:25-30). Ask those who were disagreeing with Paul (Phil 3:15) or those complaining and grumbling (Phil 2:14,15). Ask those who are going to get the privilege of suffering for their faith (Phil 1:29). The city of Philippi had a church filled with regular humans living in common circumstances experiencing everyday conflict, harmony, and community making. In the passage above, Paul seems to say, that if we are unified with Jesus (or “born again” as some prefer to say), that to make Paul’s joy complete they should be “like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind.” This also is not a call to a cult-like uniformity of thought on all topics or an abandonment of personal opinion or choice. It is specifically that they would be unified in their position of humility and their posture of putting others interest ahead of their own. This unity is a theological mandate because in our relationships with our sisters and brothers we are to imitate our master’s mindset who put our desperate need ahead of his own well being.

Over the last couple of decades I have been in two churches that have sister churches and ministries that rent or share facilities. This has never been easy, but it is always rewarding. In every situation, it is always clearest what our own preferences and needs are. My needs always seem reasonable (to me). My preferences often feel more like the only rational possibility until I meet the knuckle-head who cleaned the kitchen WRONG AGAIN! (Emphasis only in my head, I promise.) When four different languages are singing praises to God every Sunday in a church building people tell me, “It’s just like the banquet table in John’s Apocalypse (Rev 19:18). But when multiple accents, a dozen cultures, scores of personalities, and multitude of preferences share bathrooms, toiletries, kitchens, sanctuaries, parking lots, and (I hesitate to even say it) sound systems, it can feel more like being caught in the middle of Armageddon (Rev 16:16-18). Ok, perhaps I exaggerate. But whenever groups of people who are striving to be unified in Christ are actually spending time in shared space for significant time, they must all sacrifice. I’ll even say they must feel like they are sacrificing beyond the others. This is necessarily the case because we cannot possibly see all the sacrifice of the other groups, but we are painfully aware of our own. And this is theologically required of us. This is slowly making our attitude Christ-like. Over time, as we love each other deeply, with effort and exhausting patience, we start to notice that our sisters and brothers are also laboring hard to put up with us. They don’t prefer our preferences any more than we prefer theirs. They don’t like learning that evidently there are more ways of putting away chairs or managing a nursery space than made sense to them any more than we do. But they have been trying hard (much harder than you realize) to “do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit.” It turns out, it’s really hard to become more like Jesus, but theologically, it’s required. To follow Jesus, you have to actually, you know, follow. (Mark 8:34,35)

The Character of Virtue by Hauerwas: Chapter 1

Introductory Chapter (by Samuel Wells)

Quote from p.5: “Look at what happens in the story of Jesus: the Gospel (of Luke) begins with the tearing of the heavens and the ends with the tearing of the temple curtain.”
– I liked this image.  The thunder from the baptism as the tearing of heavens.  He had referred earlier to the Father’s voice identifying both Jesus as Son and the Father as being well pleased.

Quote from p.8: “companion – literally, one who shares bread
– Simple observation, but profound to sit with.

Quote from p.10: “Michael Ramsey once called priests to be “with God, with people on your hearts.
– While this strikes me as a bit sentimental (negatively), I think the beauty of the idea is in the best possible sentiment of lift up people we care for toward God, in prayer, through encouragement, using liturgy, officiating sacrifice, in moments that connect heaven and earth in tangible shared experiences and moments of compassion (shared suffering).

Quote from p. 16: “Aristotle calls this right balance the mean. … If they’re struggling with lust, the answer isn’t simply to shut down physically or sensually but to discover forms of touch that aren’t sexual and forms of sexuality that aren’t all about touch. If they’re struggling with doubt, the answer isn’t to leap into fanaticism but to try to practice something in between called faith.
– I don’t know what to think about this entirely. I remember feeling so clear about a distinction between Platonic and Aristotelian frame works and how important that distinction was to one’s philosophy.  Those days have long since past. Is the “mean” or average a better focal point than the ideal in matters of human experience?  Is neither helpful in understanding God’s referent? Or is God’s vantage point none of our business and our best hope is to find his desire for our times in his trajectory in past revelation relative to its ancient audience.

Quote from p. 19: “(Stanley) believes kindness is ‘the very character of God.’ … ‘The greatest threat to our being virtuous usually comes not from vice but from dispositions that are similar to virtue. The great enemy of kindness, for example, is sentimentality.
– AMEN. Sentimentality is a dirty word.  It abuses many more than realize it’s great offense.

Unity in Christ is Near – Eph 4:1-7

Unity in Christ is real (or Unity in Christ is near) – Ephesians 4:1-7 (NIV) As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.


This is no well-padded marketing sell. Paul strongly urges (calls) the church in Ephesus to live a life (walk in a manner) worthy of their calling. These are exceptional traits he lists that are rarely demanded in our world. Humility. Gentleness. Patience. Bearing with each other in love. I always laugh when people act like these are easy, fluffy, comfort words. Notice that these are only expressed under tension and with adversity. The only time you’ll hear a bartender urging for patience and gentleness is to slow a brewing bar fight. A friend of mine in college once said, “the Christian life, like a car in neutral, is only coasting if it’s going downhill.” This effort to keep unity isn’t moving forward if you are coasting downhill. If unity is a beautiful effort, it is the dirt, sweat and blood washed down the sink after worn and weary hands wash off the evidence of an important project that has been hard fought for.  Paul asks for exertion. Hard work to keep a unity that has already been won by the Holy Spirit using a bond we already possess. The bond of peace is granted to all Christ-followers when we each receive Christ’s life.  His peace with the Father is gifted and the war in our soul is decided, even if far from over. This peace with God is what demands love with each other (see most of 1st John or worse, read Jesus’ teaching in Matthew 18:21-35). 


Of course this actual unity is not at all uniformity.  It does not demand personalities to diminish, for cultures to be set aside, for our experiential backgrounds to be abandoned.  Paul imagines this one body to be made of many parts working together.  Some of his references to the diversity of bodily functions in the church is tied to spiritual gifts (1 Corinthians 12).  They also are tied to the richness of ethnic and cultural diversity in the body that displays the enormous breadth, depth and width of the Father’s love, from whom every family derives it’s name (Eph 4:14-19). We need to experience this diversity in order to be “filled to the measure of all the fullness of God”. In addition to a diversity of gifting, culture, experience, we should add age, gender and theological perspective.  That both women and men, young and old, are important for the church to function well shouldn’t be of any controversy, although there is much to say about the details elsewhere.  But many don’t see an importance of the diversity of theological view points within the unity of the church. If Paul claims there exists one Lord, one faith, one baptism, then shouldn’t we all conform to the same doctrinal positions?  No. Paul spills much ink to the churches of Corinth and Galatia warning about unfruitful theological debates, or debates handled unfruitfully. Clearly there can not be complete theological apathy or confusion, so individual churches and associations of churches gather around central doctrinal documents, confessions, or their equivalent to help them form and articulate their understanding of the core tenants of our shared faith.  It shouldn’t be argued that what we believe about God, his Son Jesus and the Holy Spirit and their self-revelation is unimportant.  But as Paul implores, recognizing in humility, that Jesus belongs to no single group of Christians in our age or ages past. There certainly are people who are not united with us in our faith, whom Jesus will say sadly, “I did not know you.” (REF).  But Jesus also seems to teach that perhaps even the disciples might be surprised with whom they share a fellowship table in eternity (REF).  

So Paul urges us to take great pains to leverage the bond we share with other Christians, the bond of peace, the person of Christ.  This is not an off-topic trail, for nearly every conflict born from cultural difference I have experiences, even those which begin with dinning habits, ultimately are blamed on theological difference or deficiency.  This is a lazy mistake. I take great umbrage with people who make up theological issues to leave churches that actually only offended their sense of power or preference.  Church leaders should be even more careful to dig deeper into why cultural conflict occurs rather than quickly dismiss groups or individual for “theological” misgivings.  In order to live in a worthy manner, we must focus on the central unity by which we share our communion with the Father, the person of Jesus.  His bound of peace is real and tangible, allowing us to be saved!  So also we can fight hard to  restore relationships.  It will take mighty patience, exhausting gentleness, strenuous humility, and a strength in love that will grow spiritual and relational muscles we didn’t think we had. Uniformity is cubic zirconia. Unity is the real deal.